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Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Slipping

I feel like I am starting to lose control of Ruby's health. Not in an end of the world kind of way, but little bit by little bit until it turns into an avalanche. My focus on her diet has always given me the self confidence boost that I am managing a part of her CF well. She has dropped from the 20th percentile to the 12th percentile. Her vitamin levels have dropped again, putting her generalhealth at risk. She is back on anti-biotics, fighting a bug plus a staph infection. Did I not use enough Glenn 20? Her excema has flared up and she is itchy. I can't seem to make her comfortable. I can't seem to make her happy. If she's not happy, I'm not happy. The harmony has gone. How do I fix this? Will I regain control? Will my family ever get a good night sleep again?
Three different people told me this yesterday:


And if three people say it, then it must be true, right?

2 comments:

Penny said...

Bless you Danni...just know you are fighting the good fight the best way you can. Love is very powerful armour <3

Rosie Greyhound. Duchess of Macs said...

None of us have absolute control over anyone's health. You are doing your best with an illness that doesn't care how much you do. Dont be hard on yourself. Its a good day/ bad day progress. You are not the expert yet, its too soon. but you will be.